I really miss my sweet baby Daniela today. Recently I’ve purposely taken time to sit and think of what she would look like and what it would feel like to hold her, what the feeling of having my two girls sleeping in their bedrooms would be like. It’s not reality of course. And even though my current reality is pretty amazing… (I enjoy my hobbies, my family, my work, my daughter and sweet hubby)…it just feels incomplete, like I’m living in a strange, parallel world that’s just not quite right… something is off and I know what it is. I can’t change it. I can’t control it. I want the other reality but it’s just simply doesn’t exist. So, I love what I have but I still grieve what is missing.
“How very softly you tiptoed into my world. Almost silently. Only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left upon my heart.” ~Author Unknown”
“Dear Lord, I would have loved to have held my baby on my lap and tell him/her about you, but since I didn’t get the chance, would you please hold my angel on your lap and tell him/her about me?”
I feel your pain. There will always be an ache in yourr heart over the loss of Daniela, even if you have another child. I love you, dad.